my sis, mhin, will be turning 18 this june. such a sweet soul that i am, i took the responsibility of planning the whole debut party. now i'm having a hard time juggling work and preps and stuffs. but can't help getting excited about the party though, we've decided to have an oriental theme, chopsticks as souveniers, ampao for invites, china silk for her gown. hopefully, will be able to finalize stuffs this weekend ^^
"DISTANCE never separates HEARTS that really CARE... though we may not spend so much time TOGETHER... you're always in my THOUGHTS coz u'll always BE SPECIAL 4ever"
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i got this text the other day and the number wasn't registered in my phone.
i'm not keeping secrets from you, there's just nothing much to say about this whole berelain stuff. this is what you call self-preservation. it's my last attempt to keep my individuality intact now that the day, when we'll be considered as one heart-one soul, is near.
talk about blogging via n6600 ;) havent done my entries lately which explains my previous entry. missing you all... summer's here, let's have a beach party!
i miss my books! yesterday rand and i dropped by this bookstore. i was loitering, browsing for nothing specific. suddenly i saw him walking towards the counter with a paperback in hand. to my surprise, its the 10th book of the WOT series. i was elated.
this reminded me that a promise is still a promise no matter how long time ago you made it.
weekend was just ok. didnt get much chance to bum at home though. we welcomed my new niece in the christian world yesterday. my sister posted as her godmother. now that's a plus one on her christmas list ^^ i have around 7 godchildren which i really dont get see them much which makes me feel being a not-so-great godmother :roll: anyways, in their dire times, i'm just here willing to help in any ways that i can.
mental note: will have to think of a new color scheme.
got some shuteye past 2am already, after watching the reality tv "For Love or Money". The guy has to make his final decision and has to pick between the last two ladies. one has her heart on her sleeves while the other remains skeptical over the whole thing. turns out the guy chose the latter and ends up broken hearted for she would rather have the 1M USD for herself than share it with him. to top it all, there will be an upcoming series where that lady now gets a second chance to find her guy among 15 contenders. in the end, should the guy she chose wants her and not the money, the producers double up the pot.
before she throw the 1M USD check into the fireplace, she said "i just wish, what goes around won't come around ". silly what people do for love or money.
-- marks the start of lenten season when we begin a period of sober reflection, self-examination, and spiritual redirection.
haven't thought of any absolution i could do this lent. probably it's not what i can do less but what i can do more. specifically, spend more quality time with my parents and my younger sis.
i was part of it. the feeling of awe by chopers circling above me is still vivid in my mind. never have i seen so many people in my 8 years of existence. my parents, on a safe distance, decided to watch the rally. never knew what it was for yet somehow i know something big is happening. it was fun and kinda scary at the same time. to relive the moment, click the link below:
Jake was dying. His wife, Becky, was maintaining a candlelight vigil by his side. She held his fragile hand, tears running down her face.
Her praying roused him from his slumber He looked up and his pale lips began to move slightly.
"Becky my darling," he whispered. "Hush my love," she said. "Rest, don't talk." He was insistent.. "Becky," he said in his tired voice, "I have something that I must confess." "There's nothing to confess," replied the weeping Becky, "everything's all right, go to sleep."
"No, no. I must die in peace, Becky. I ... I slept with your sister,your best friend, her best friend and your mother!"
"I know, my sweet one" whispered Becky, "let the poison work."
should i discover Rand in fooling around, i just might do same :lol:
it was already 2 hours past midnight, dated 22nd of February of the year 1978, the third child but the first girl was brought into the world by Elayne with her husband Thom by her side. an angel she truly was, never gave any trouble to her parents.
blah.. blah.. blah..
would've written my biography, to mark my existence in this world. kinda like, "berelain was here" carving. didnt want it to sound like an orbituary. too exhausted, though incoherent, i settled for these:
horse: my year - my spirit
fish: loves swimming, water
music: food for my soul
weakness: trusting, naive, emotional, chocolates
strengths: trustworthy
i am getting older. the question is, have i grown wiser? i always try to bear in mind that the ultimate goal is not to live happily ever after. The point is -- to live.
mental notes -------------
on self-doubt, self-pity: you always get what you deserve. one must love oneself before he can love others.
making assumptions:
a coin has two sides, know both. change = paradigm shift.
optimism:
things happen for a reason. when there's life there's hope.
determination:
can't leave everything to faith. create your own destiny. you put yourself in it, you can get yourself out of it. be the best that i can be.
mission statement: desiderata.
seriously asking myself, what kind of person i want to be. almost forgotten who i was before. trying to figure out who i am today. what are my values, my goals. been drifting for 2 years now. time to to pull it back together.
Sui ran jing chang meng jian ni Hai shi hao wu tou xu Wai mian zheng zai xia zhe yu Jing tian shi xing qi ji BUT I DON'T KNOW ni qu na li
# Sui ran bu ceng huai yi ni Hai shi tan te bu ding Shui shi ni de na ge wei yi Yuan liang wo huai yi zi ji
CHORUS Wo ming bai Wo yao de ai Hui ba wo chong huai Xiang yi ge xiao hai Zhi dong zai ni huai li huai Ni yao de ai Bu zhi she yi lai Yao xiang ge da nan hai Feng chui you ri sai Sheng huo zi you zi zai
Sui ran jing chang meng jian ni Hai shi hao wu tou xu Wai mian zheng zai xia zhe yu Jing tian shi xing qi ji BUT I DON'T KNOW ni qu na li
# Sui ran bu ceng huai yi ni Hai shi tan te bu ding Shui shi ni de na ge wei yi Yuan liang wo huai yi zi ji
CHORUS Wo ming bai Wo yao de ai Hui ba wo chong huai Xiang yi ge xiao hai Zhi dong zai ni huai li huai Ni yao de ai Bu zhi she yi lai Yao xiang ge da nan hai Feng chui you ri sai Sheng huo zi you zi zai
Wo ming bai Wo yao de ai Hui ba wo chong huai Xiang yi ge xiao hai Zhi dong zai ni huai li huai Ni yao de ai Bu zhi she yi lai Yao xiang ge da nan hai Feng chui you ri sai Sheng huo zi you zi zai
-- Penny Dai, Ni Yao De Ai
hey, i may not understand the song (hell, didn't even bother to search for a translation) but i just love it.
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still not done with my report modules :( either i'm too slow and they're like flash gordon.. or i'm too meticulous and they're like "ok, its up and running. done!"
arghrrr.. :evil:
some guys are fixing something here. couldn't seem to work with all that hammering noise. tomorrow is another day, hopefully, a better one.
may the stars brightly twinkle for you while the soft cotton-clouds cradle you to sleep as the moon hums you a sweet lullaby.
Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes Five hundred twenty five thousand moments so dear Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes How do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights and cups of coffee In inches, in miles and laughter and strife In five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes How do you measure a year in the life?
How about love... How about love... How about love... Measure in love... Seasons of love... Seasons of love...
Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes Five hundred twenty five thousand journeys to plan Five hundred twenty five thousand six hundred minutes How do you measure the life of a woman or a man?
In truths that she's learned, or in times that he's cried In bridges he's burned, or the way that she died It's time now to sing out, [though] the story never ends Let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends Remember the love...
good news: i don't have to deal with my team leader ever. bad news: i might have to fill in his position.
why, you ask me? coz this project is in total chaos especially the report modules :evil: however i psyche myself to go to work every single day to do or redo erroneous modules, i just can't take it anymore. i so hate this project.
had my first root canal yesterday. it's not as bad as the hole it left on my pocket (cost me US$110). i hate the taste of medicine inside my molar :? the taste and smell makes me feel like i'm in a hospital, which is one of my least favorite places (excluding the nursery).
no deep thoughts to share today :roll: barely trying to get through my work load one day at a time.
i'm exhausted but i cant sleep. bet i'd drop like a sack of grain the second i close my eyes. my body's screaming for rest-- which however shortlived is completely haven; but my mind as if fueled by my imagination wont give me peace. my heart is burning, yearning or reaching out for something more or deeper. incredilously, all these may have something to do with valentines day.
to give light to the matter, simply put: i'm a hopeless romantic. i get so affected by anything related to love. i am never good with words, not as articulate nor profound as someone i know (hint: w--). with this in mind, i find it easier to express myself with quotes from movies and music. a day can pass me by with me contentedly listening to my favorite tunes. a blissful moment can be described when i cozily read a romance novel without any interferance or simply watching reruns of classic love stories or discovering new ones.
*pauses for awhile.. pull from my bed is definetly getting stronger..*
sometimes i wish my life would be a montage/collage of my favorite scenes. today, there is one in particular, so vivid in my mind, the longing just hurts. as a very personal revelation, i have yet to experience the unity of body and soul between two lovers. it is not simply carnal desire or a need like food for hunger or water for thirst that i want but rather the intimacy of it all.
forgive me if i can't be more specific with my thoughts. should i go into the details of whatever is occupying my mind, i'm afraid i'll have to rate this blog: strictly for adults only. picture nicole kidman and jude law in cold mountain on their first night as man and wife.
i really ought to catch some zzz's. promised myself i'll do better at work today.
an event organized to break the Guinness World Record for Most Number of Kissing Couples will be held tonight on one of manila's romantic spot, baywalk. eagerly registered a couple of days ago. sadly, we won't be able to go. Rand has just gone through appendectomy and is currently in the healing process.
there goes our valentine plans *sigh*
that doesn't concern me much though but more of his current situation. if only i could share the pain his going through. this operation has affected him in all aspects. nothing much i can do about it since i'm stuck here at work most of the time :evil:
